Why can we never see eye to eye with one another? Why can’t you see how much effort I put with trying to be with you.. I’d honestly do anything for you. I’d always make time for you, and I always want to be with you. I’m constantly thinking of you, I always want to get you something and shower you and spoil you with nothing but my love. Why can’t you do the same for me? Why can’t you man up and do the things you used to when we first met? Is it normal for relationships to fade away just like that? I just want things to be like before. When you were the one to take me on dates, you were the one paying for me, always surprising me with gifts and being sweet/romantic for no reason. Where does the love all go… God please don’t tell me we’re fading away. Please God.
What a crappy life I have. My mom works 24/7, I never spend quality time with her which made me used to not having her as much in my life.. so then that makes me push her away. And with my dad being the silent type, I feel like me and him will never have a close father-daughter bond/relationship, with the ones that involve talking and communicating and giving advice like in the movies… I feel like my parents are never there with me when I need them, I feel like they know nothing about me, and I feel like they will never understand me at all.
I can’t take anymore of not seeing you as much as I want to and not being to talk to you for at least a day. It kills me, it really does. You don’t even know how painful it is for me to not hear from a person that I care about so much, and you mean so much to me too. You don’t even understand baby how much I care about you.
I think about you everyday, as corny and cliche and overheard line used by most couples.. but I’m being true to you right now. There is literally not ONE day where I don’t think about you. You are always in my thoughts. I try so hard not to think about you but that doesn’t help at all.
I understand the situation that you are going through, how you don’t always have a money.. and how you don’t have a car and you can’t drive yet until you’re 18. But it’s just frustrating for me how we can’t go anywhere special, and do anything fun. The only thing we can do is go to each other’s houses but then you complain that we can’t do anything at my house.. but we don’t do anything at your house either.
Baby, I really hope you understand that I am being the most patient person I am possibly trying to be. Waiting for you to get a job, waiting for you to save money and waiting for the day you can drive and we can actually do something fun together. Baby I’m seriously waiting.. You don’t even know how much you mean to me. I’m willing to wait for you, even though it’s so frustrating and hard to along the way.
I get jealous every time I see a couple, because I wish that was me right now with you. You don’t even know it.. I get so jealous because they get to see the one person that they love and I’m just missing you so much and it hurts me.
Why am I still with you? You’re probably wondering that. Why do you still love me even if I don’t drive, don’t have a job? Well, you are just someone that changed me for the better. You made me who I am today, and that is someone happier and I changed my perspective on things. You’re the only one that can put me in a good mood just by talking to me.. I don’t even know. I feel like with you not being in my life, it’s just so difficult for me. I’d be so lost and confused without you.. I wouldn’t know what to do first. And why would I lose you? Why would I want to lose what I have.. and it’s hard to find something so genuine and real.
I gotta stop.
I’m missing you, and it sucks because I haven’t heard from you all day.
my ugly cuppy cake. :)
miss you babeeeee
And having to worry if I get my fucking period or not
Honestly, it bugs me how much my sister is sprung over this guy. She is obviously way to naive. She doesn’t know anything about love, and to be completely honest I’m seriously thinking that she will make the same mistakes that I did. Guys are just jerks, they play with you with words and it gets girls hypnotized into thinking they are this perfect guy. There’s nothing that I hate more than player lines, like there are so many shallow guys in this world. You can’t find a genuine gentleman, those are so hard to find it’s like finding a needle in a haystack. My sister is just so stupid sometimes, she doesn’t know anything about love and what if he plays her? I got to let it go and let her enjoy and experience having a boyfriend. But I don’t know why I just want to break them up lol. But oh well, if they break up then she learns her lesson. And she wouldn’t have to be such a selfish bitch.
I don’t know why I get so weak when it comes to you. Being in a relationship where you don’t get to see your significant other often is tough. I get so mad if I don’t get to see you at least once a week, I get so angry if I don’t get a call from you. But what can I say? I get so weak when I hear your voice, when I finally see you again I get happy inside and I forget that I was ever mad at you. I can never stay mad at you, and I hate it. I get mad at the fact that you don’t call me, or text me first. Or give effort into seeing me, but when I see you I just forget about it and forgive you. But do you even know how much talking on the phone means to me? More than you will ever know. You know why? Because talking on the phone with you is the closest thing I’ll ever get into actually being with you… When I talk to you on the phone, that’s the only way I can ever get to you. The only way to feel as though you are still here with me, even though you’re not.. You’re farrr farr away from me.
So if you miss me, I won’t believe it if you tell me. If you miss me, then fucking do something about it.
That’s what I love about our relationship. We share what’s been bothering us, we tell our problems to each other and what bugs us about each other and then we always fix things and talk it out. I love how you never give up on me, which is why you are so special in my life. You actually try in this relationship. If I’m telling you that I feel like you don’t care, you fix it right away. If I miss you, you make effort. I love that about you. You always try and make things better in our relationship. You always want to do things to make ME happy. You are so amazing and I fully take and accept who you are. I know you’re not perfect, but the fact that you try and hold on to this relationship really makes me think that I do not ever want to lose you.. ever.